Pink is not my colour at the moment, I seem to be using a lot of deeper fuschia, reds, burgundys....seem to be going a little more richer and deeper... I wonder what that means?... all you colour gals out there may be able to tell me?...

Pink is not my colour at the moment, I seem to be using a lot of deeper fuschia, reds, burgundys....seem to be going a little more richer and deeper... I wonder what that means?... all you colour gals out there may be able to tell me?...

Here is another in my series of the seven deadly sins - Pride.
I call it "False Pride". I find I have depicted someone who has needed to be perfect, has tried so hard to always do the "right thing", to be "the good girl", that it has brought much unease along the way... Always never meeting her own too high expectations...not allowed to love and accept herself for who she is as that would be too prideful.....
But of course most of us were brought up that way...and now to break free of limitations and to change the way you see the world means to let go of an awful lot of conditioning...Something I think most people have to battle with constantly to be able to move forward in life.
I am starting to think about how if you want to change it means you have to see yourself as indestructible. That whatever you do, you will still survive.....to move out of the "safe" places and into the unknown...you have to really allow yourself to let go and "jump off the cliff"...and maybe you will fly...but not even concern yourself with whether you will fly or not...to completely LET GO...
This week on my holidays I just thought I would try painting & collaging an Art Journal...picked up some hard cardboard childrens books, selling off cheap from the library, and as they were only 10c each, I thought if they don't work I can throw them away...
Only problem is, trying to sand & cover with Gesso the "easy wipe clean" surface of these books is a huge job, as the surface is virtually Indestructable!!!....
Have tried everything to get the surface to take paint...even nail polish remover..but the original surface stays shiny...and the paint is lifting or easily chipping off.......any ideas out there?...
Can see a valuable lesson if I use this experience metaphorically....
Here is the cutest of the books, think I should really just keep it for future grandchildren...(don't get any ideas yet please Rachel)...

We would rather be ruined than changed. We would rather die in our dread than climb the cross of the moment, and let our illusions die. W.H.Auden.
We are chasing perfection rather than allowing our natural perfection to flow from us... Sandra Sauer.